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| i wish i was motivated.... well i am motivated with some things, but i
wish i was motivated to go to school. i mean i want to go to
school but i know once i get there, it doesnt matter where i'll fall
back into my old routine of slacking and ultimatley quitting
again. i've been thinking a lot lately and i might go back to
Brazil. i miss it so much and i was happy there teaching english
and starting new. we'll see for now i'll stay stuck here in this rut
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| well, its been a little while since i lasted posted. Time to
update. Winter is here, our house is torn apart (we're adding on)
my room got a slight make over (i love it) and my birthday is in 18
days, i cut my hair off some more, i and i'm still working at
target. Other than that things are about as they were. I
met these two really cool guys at work, and have become fairly close
with both of them, its always awesome to make new friends. I love
it when it snow, but i hate winter.... figure that one out, anways i
hope you have a great day, and i'm sorry i can put anything more
profound in here. As always
<3 Beth
Praise God everyday, for he is the root of all beautiful things in you life
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| i cried today, cried becaues i was truely sad about the state my life
is in. I pray every night for God to help me because i know he's
the only one who can. I feel like my life is going in circles, it
gets better and then when everything seems great and i'm on top,
something happens and i get knocked right back to where i was.
This time it was with my mom....again i feel that no matter what i do
it will never ever be good enough for her, no matter what i do it's
never good enough, i'll forever be the failure daughter. Then i
think wow, i'm such a freakin baby there are people out there who have
it 1,000,000,000 times worse than me and here i am crying and
complaining about how bad my life is, but i can't help it. I'm so
fortunate to have a close circle of friends that would do anything for
me, anything at all, i have a more or less stable family that loves me,
i have a job, i have a car, a social life, little things that i take
for granted, i have it all, so why can't i just be happy? I guess this
is my call, my cry for help, "Oh how i need You Lord You're my only
hope, my only prayer.."
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| ugh i didn't get it to work, if someone could please explain to me how to do it i would greatly appriciate it.....
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